Saturday, November 28, 2009

News and Annoyances

My mother has lung cancer that has spread to her brain. It was just discovered a week ago. She was put in the hospital immediately. Im freakin out! Its almost impossible for me to think about. Im pissed that her lame dr didnt check her out AGES ago. Shes had a horrible cough for a couple years! Shes been smoking since she was like 14. Seems to me that an xray or something should have been done. The only reason it was found was because the tumors in her head are so big they are pressing on things and hurting her. WTF?! She is getting radiation on her head now. Which I am terrified about. Shes only had 2 'treatments' and shes already sick and she has 8 more to go. How much of her healthy brain will be corrupted from that poison they are shooting at her? After that they will begin 'treating' her lung cancer. She has alot of hell ahead of her.

So im my attempt at self preservation, Ive been spending time looking at, playing and reading about things I like. And getting annoyed there too! See I LOVE everquest2. It is the best mmorpg game there is. By far, it IS. But the masses are in love with a dumb game called World of Warcraft. Ive played it. Its a completely dumbed down EQ2 that looks like it was made for gradeschoolers. Soooo many people talk about it and play it and say how wonderful it is. Its amazing to me! And that so many people have never played or sometimes never even heard of EQ2 confounds me. I admit, Sony has dropped the ball in the advertising department. I see adverts on tv, in mags, all over for world of warcrap. But nothing...NOTHING for EQ2. Why this is, I cannot fathom.

I have been playing EQ2 since right after it began. I tried a few races and classes before settling on an Iksar Necromancer as my main. She is awesomeness and if I could become her, bring my family in to Norrath with me, I would do it in a heartbeat. I am not obsessed with this place, I just enjoy it mightily.

There are very few things I complain about in EQ2. One of my biggest, tho, is that they made some things extremely easy to try to lure in the dumbos from wow. Crafting used to require paper and pens and math and lots of note keeping. All of which I adored. But now you just sit there and click a button or two and youre crafting. BOOOORING! I fall asleep half the time. And they changed the horses. The old models looked terrible. I was overjoyed to see the new ones when they announced them. They look great! But then I saw them move and it made me miss the old ones. The oldies were very unrealistic looking (to my horsey loving eye) but the movements, especially the running, was PERFECTION. Now, they barely move when they run. Their heads are frozen like a carousel mount! And we sit on them like a statue. BUT...they have a great flank jiggle that is pretty realistic. So, yea, thats like the only thing I have to complain about.

Im going to post some screen shots of some favorite places. I would rant some more, but we are going to see the inlaws today and i need a spot more sleep before we begin the big stresser of the day. I want to stay home and hang with me mums! Stupid family visiting at the worst time ever :[

Plus the babe is calling me :}

Monday, March 02, 2009

Birthday Bummer

Life is depressing. I try very hard to keep happy but its extremely difficult....

Mad turned one a month ago. I attempted to decorate and have a little party but it was a total dud. Nabs was pissy all day, Bruce was annoying and i was so down about her being a year already i had no energy to finish decorating her cake. I made cupcakes, too, but only decorated 4 of them. I made like 30 of them but I bet I don't even have half of them left. The males here are pigs, especially Bruce. He even stole a bunch of the candies i bought to decorate the cupcakes with, didn't ask or anything! asshole. and our kitchen outlets and lights don't work anymore so theres just one crappy lamp in there on an extension cord so its SUPER dark. and its a wicked small room. especially with 5 adults and a dog in there! not an environment that inspires creativity and happiness, thats for sure! and all day my mother 'advised' me on how to do everything, shes trying to help, but it makes her a bummer to be around.

And how can a whole year have gone by already? FUCK! Time is getting away from me faster than i ever thought it could. I feel so old and lonely.

Anyway, I know no one really gives a crap about that so I will stop whining and put up some pictures.